Thoughts On Motherhood

Thoughts On Motherhood

I am getting a bit sentimental and emotional. My little one just turned four the other day and I am one of those parents that ask themselves how come the years passed by so fast. I just feel that it was only yesterday when my daughter was a tiny baby lying on my chest or trying out her tiny steps along the hallway. Now, she is no longer a baby. She has grown so much in a matter of four years. She is an independent kid who speaks her mind and knows what she wants, well most of the time anyway. And what breaks my heart a little is that she no longer needs me 24/7. And I know soon enough, she would have her own world and I would have to let her go. Last week, we went school hunting and a teacher invited her to see the class. She excitedly pulled out of my grasp, waved goodbye at me, and wanted to send me off already. I feel like I am not yet ready. I told her that once school starts, I would bring her to school and pick her up after her class. She said she just wanted to take the school bus and I was not allowed to go with her. It is quite ironic, I know. Although I am proud of how independent she is, a part of me wants her to say she still needs me around. I kind of miss being everything she needed. Yes, motherhood is tough but this girl somehow made it a little bit easier. I may be emotional now but I am also excited for the days ahead when she starts with her new school and meets new people. I just know that she will shine. I have to prepare myself to share this bright little girl with the rest of the world.